
Today has been a process in all ways. My friend came over and helped me to do more decluttering and taking things to her home that she will sell for me.
I have been really struggling because I needed to find somewhere and if you read yesterday’s jottings you will know that it became impossible and I couldn’t even get support from different associations. A dear friend offered me a room in another state and I am now moving down there even sooner then I expected.
This meant that I have really need to sort everything much quicker. I have been having trouble sleeping because of the anxiety and this has also affected my thoughts. They have gone into the catastrophic thoughts which I have been working on by naming it and helping it to feel safe. Writing this I now realise that I haven’t been doing that recently. Mmmmm. I will chat to it after I publish this.
You can see in the photos below the sorting that is happening. I have decluttered a lot in the past couple of years as I went from a two bedroom unit down to a one bedroom space. Did this mean a I had minimal belongings? Nope. After the clearing out I have been doing I realised that I still had a lot of belongings.



The photos above don’t show how much I actually had as this was part way through decluttering. Now getting back to thoughts. I have had many people try to be helpful by telling me that I can store all of these with a friend and then get them later.
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I had already talked about how I will be selling, giving away or throwing out what can’t be used as it isn’t in good condition. Yet people were still giving me advice that I wasn’t asking for. I can understand that they wanted to be supportive yet this affected my thoughts and mental health. I had really strong boundaries and let people know that I had made decisions and was happy with that.
This is a great reminder to everyone and yes even me, that unless someone asks or gives permission don’t offer advice. I even recorded a podcast episode on this very topic.
I really wanted to declutter down to one suitcase except for the paintings and a couple of other things. I have done exceptionally well with this and tomorrow everything will be sorted as I am staying with a friend for a couple of nights.
Even as I am writing this my energy is very low and I am taking ages to write it because of my thoughts and the struggle to keep my attention on writing.
So are my emotions and thoughts affected by being in survival mode? Oh most certainly and in a bigger way than I thought. I haven’t even really talked about the emotions which have been up and down as well as a range of them.
Well that has been today and till next time take care of you
Darleen