I was asked today what I would do to settle in to my new place to make it my own space. It really made me think and as I don’t have the head space I couldn’t think about it.
I have been thinking about this since this morning though and realised when do I let go of my thoughts, patterns, beliefs, and energy around everything that has happened that led up to needing to leave when I lived?
When do I let go?
I named my unaligned/negative side “Sacred One,” and I spoke to her today asking this question. The comment back was you are not ready as you are still in survival mode.
I got a little annoyed actually which was surprising. I knew it was because sometimes I get really impatient with myself and this is not a good thing in this case. Letting go can’t be rushed and I need to repeat this to myself.
Today my friend, who I am staying with for a couple of nights before flying to Sydney, took me to a healing circle and the synchronicity of everyone and all we said was incredible. We all picked a card that had one word on it (we didn’t see the word on our card until it was our time and we turned it over) and as we went around the circle it was like a story that was added to by each person.
My word was “Communication” and it was so good to talk about how I communicated my need even though I was so embarrassed over my situation. It was nice to be held energetically and heard which is rare. One of the other ladies talked about ancestral healing and I realised that my fear of homelessness was actually past lives and I needed to do ancestral healing on this.
In the meditation part of it I received the messages from Star Beings that it was time to work with them again. I must admit that I have missed doing this and it is time to go full time again with the spirituality including in my business.
When I came home after the meditation I got my dear animals out that have been with me for a while as they are a part of my journey and I will be working with them a lot more in regards to mental health and inspiring others by sharing my story.
Sitting outside on the balcony this afternoon we had some birds come and be with us for a while including pale faced rosella which I hadn’t seen before. I absolutely love nature and the messages they give to us. How often do you listen to nature?
I can see a small difference in my face from yesterday which is good and it means I am ready to start the process. It feels good to write that.
So when do I let go?
When I am ready and not anytime sooner.
Till next time.
Darleen
