I have nothing left. I seriously mean nothing mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally. All of these hurt big time and I am truly grateful to a dear friend and her family who have invited me to stay with them for a couple of nights until I fly out.
Yesterday a dear friend helped me so much with decluttering and today my best friend came down from Hervey Bay to help me finish. My friend was absolutely amazing and I know that she is spent physically and maybe other areas.
There is no way that I can thank these two amazing friends and I truly hope how much I appreciate them.
When I got home today there was still a little to do so I did most of that and I will finish tomorrow.
As I sat down to eat dinner I really struggled although I made myself as a I needed the food. I am glad I did as now I am laying in bed after having a shower feeling a little better. Apart from writing this I am doing things that use no brain power like watching tv.
This photo is a great representation of how I am feeling. That empty chair is me in every way. I don’t know if I have ever been this spent and this whole experience has been an awesome lesson in understanding what is really important and how much belongings I actually need.
I am going to ensure that I am very present when I go to buy anything and continually ask if this is needed or will it be something I rarely or never use.
I honestly believe I could live out of a motor home now that I have declutterred in a big way.
I don’t know what the future holds and I am open to going with the flow.,I have been changing my business structure over the time and will be totally online. In the future I want to hold in person workshops and retreats.
For now it is time to rest. Till next time.
Darleen
